Struggling with the Shelter in place order?

On Friday March 13th, I was leaving a newborn session when President Trump announced the state of emergency for our country due to the spread of Corona Virus. As you can imagine, that is a really big deal. I've been following the news on Covid-19 from day one because it has always been a really big concern for me because my oldest son has terrible Asthma.

I went straight to the grocery store and stocked up on dry and canned goods in preparation for a lock down because I knew I didn't want my family out and about to minimize our risk. I run a home studio for my photography and I didn't want people coming and going because the kids are now out of school as schools have been closed. On March 16th, I voluntarily closed my business. Took the rest of the week off for my day job. And planned to spend my time off focusing on homeschooling my boys.

On March 19th California Governor Newsom did the best thing for this state, He made the stay in shelter an official order. He took some great steps and led the way by closing down California. I'm really glad he took the steps to do what he did because when Washington and New York's numbers spiked, as soon as California came next, He became proactive and did what needed to be done!

State Capital- Sacramento, California. I took this photo from my car

This was 16 days ago. 16 DAYS. I know in my heart, the safest place is to be home. BUT. It has been a struggle. My kids have been really good, surprisingly they have not been fighting. Home schooling is going really well. We have a routine. It's been smooth... BUT... My mental health has been up and down and up and down. I'm a really big extrovert - I like people. I like being out and about and seeing people. So to confine me to a space where I can't socialize, its tough.

Homeschooling 4 kids. My two sons and the middle two boys are my nephews. I make up my own curriculum as I go because its easier teaching kids one subject then trying to get all boys on their individual classes. This day we learned about clouds.

I don't go to bars, I don't party with my friends. What I like to do is WORK and I like to walk around stores like Target, Joann's, Hobby Lobby, Barnes and Noble, Home goods, ect.

So I had to sit down and do some brain storming. Ask myself, why am I itching to get out of the house. Why is it so hard for me to STAY HOME? I had to do some real soul searching. What I discovered is that I have some PTSD from when I was pregnant. For both my boys, I was put on strict bed rest early on due to high risk pregnancy. That was extremely difficult. By the time I had my second, I couldn't even be on my feet, I literally had to lay in bed most of the time. Both my boys were born in the NICU so I spent a lot of time in the hospital. With my second son, I went into pre-term labor before it was safe for him to be born, so then I was in the hospital for almost 3 weeks, on bed rest, by my self ( people came and visited but I was still in the hospital for weeks by myself) , until it was safe for him to be born on February 8th. It was really hard for me. Because of these event's, I've always been out and about. I can't stay confined to a space for two long.

People want to make us feel bad for not wanting to staying home. For needing to get out and get some fresh air. I GET IT. I've heard the judgement!